One of my favorite parts of the Book of Mormon is Alma 5. I especially love verse 14, where he says, And now behold, I ask of you, my brethren of the church, have ye spiritually been born of God? Have ye received his image in your countenances? Have ye experienced this mighty change in your hearts?
His description of what it means to be converted, to be spiritually born of God and receive His image in our countenances and undergo a mighty change of heart really resonates with me.
And then in verse 26 he says, And now behold, I say unto you, my brethren, if ye have experienced a change of heart, and if ye have felt to sing the song of redeeming love, I would ask, can ye feel so now?
First of all, I love the imagery of singing the song of redeeming love. But the question, "Can ye feel so now?" always brings me up short.
I think we all have spiritual ups and downs. At times if our lives we have great spiritual experiences and feel an outpouring of the Spirit. But other times we feel stuck in a spiritual mire and can imagine our prayers bouncing off the ceiling, never quite making it to the Lord's ears.
In Sri Lanka we met a man who had been a Catholic priest. He told us of how he was converted to the church, of miraculous happenings and of his conversion to the Gospel. Of course he was kicked out of the Catholic church and stripped of his priestly robes. He had to find another way to support himself and underwent a complete life change. And yet at the time we met him, he never came to church. He had let other cares of life get in the way and had become completely inactive. He had found the pearl of great price, had grasped it and loved it, but then had let it go.
I don't want that ever to happen to me. It's one of my greatest fears.
If you were to ask a roomful of church members how to keep hold of the pearl, you'd get a variety of answers, and they would all be worthwhile. But I've been thinking about one particular safeguard that might help me hold onto the pearl. Remembering. Alma spoke of it in this very chapter, of remembering the captivity of our fathers. In my life, my ancestors weren't in captivity, but they did have to sacrifice greatly for the Gospel, and it's important to remember those sacrifices.
But it's also important to remember the spiritual experiences and blessings that have come to me personally. President Eyring gave a talk in October of 2007 called O Remember, Remember. It is the one where he talked about recording our special experiences in order to bless our posterity. In it he says:
Tonight and tomorrow night, you might pray and ponder, asking the questions: Did God send a message that was just for me? Did I see His hand in my life or the lives of my children? I will do that. And then I will find a way to preserve the memory for the day that I and those that I love will need to remember how much God loves us and how much we need Him. I testify that He loves and blesses us, more than most of us have yet recognized. I know that is true, and it brings me joy to remember Him.
As we record our lives and especially our spiritual experiences, we can bless our lives and the lives of our children so that if we were asked, "Can ye feel so now?", we could respond with a resounding, "Yes!"